Wednesday, September 11, 2019

We Build Worlds

My mother bought this dollhouse kit 40 years ago, and I tried building it and failed 35 years ago. Now that I have the skills and the tools, the patience, and the time, fixing my old mistakes and overcoming the limitations of the kit has been an enjoyable challenge. To make it more satisfying as a vehicle for the imagination, I made it more like an architectural model and less like a toy.

Today I made 5 doors, 2 interior and 3 exterior. A cipher building a cipher, I am. There's a lot to be said for being able to make things. For me, it is a lifeline. Creativity is humankind's saving grace.

Wealth tends to diminish the impetus for creativity. Why make things when one can buy them? The answer to that question is purely spiritual and a matter of wisdom. Making things teaches and reinforces good habits of mind, including firsthand knowledge of the value of labor and its products. Our young world, captive to wealth from the beginning, has always suffered from a dearth of this among privileged people. As it is, they learn to toy with the lives of others and "break things."

Sometimes in dreams and visions I get glimpses of this world's actual edifice and it is as ugly as its history. It is a war zone in a perpetual state of privation and disrepair, dictated by the desires of the privileged.

It is evidence of humankind's innate creative drive that wealthy countries support lucrative industries that cater to do-it-yourselfers and hobbyists. And it is a sign of the disparities and incongruities of this world that privileged people like me can have personal factories to make things that people in poor countries make for a living.

Sunday, August 18, 2019

The Cube of Cubes

The Cube of Cubes is made from 5/4 rough cut cherry rejects. It is approximately 12 inches cubed and the top contains 100 one inch cubes, end grain up.

I have been trying to stay busy in this information prison doing creative work. My new philosophy, in contrast with the destructive manufactured zeitgeist, is to "move fast and fix things." In this captive world, popular culture offers only manipulation.

If one were to believe the "reality" that is reported uniformly every day, humankind is a savage and irrational species on the brink of extinction and ecocide. That is what the information advantage acting as God needs one to believe. The truth is that we are information slaves, deliberately kept in perpetual conflict with each other.

The silver lining of this very old and pernicious cloud is that "God" is stupid. It has yet to understand that knowledge is not wisdom. It is still driven by its physical passions, making the same mistakes again and again. Behind President Poo-fingers, the Cosmic Jackass is the hand of hereditary privilege, arbitrarily administering the world through punishment and reward. Humankind is finally outgrowing it. It remains to be seen how the "Lord" will ultimately respond. Judging by its narrative, it has us on the brink of extinction and ecocide.

Don't believe that history is subject to the inevitable travails of a damaged and failing species. Current events are choreographed for effect. Demiurge Inc. manufactures the reality it needs to stay on top of humankind. This brilliant species, through the networks of hereditary privilege, is made captive to the machinations of retarded psychopaths. Humankind was captured young. History is the record of its drive for emancipation.

The problem with existence in an information prison is that the actual enemy is the information source. Although it is a truism, it is only now becoming apparent in practice. Justice demands an end to the exploitation of humankind. Human beings are not livestock to be herded and consumed nor robots to be programmed. Integrity demands that the world be ordered by the truth and not by the exclusive interests of hereditary privilege. Liberty demands actual democracy without representation.

Sunday, April 28, 2019

Cracking the Ego

The fraudulent, pyramidal culture of "The Book" is not built to accommodate God, not because of the size of his ego but because of its absence. His humble presence is intolerable to the worship-gorged, psychopathic pretense of divinity that dominates humankind.

This culture is as abusive and ugly as its daily news. This is not human nature; it is the image of existential captivity.

Thursday, April 18, 2019

The Weight of Two Worlds

This planet's crippling existential burden is that it supports the weight of two worlds: the world of hereditary privilege and the ordinary world. Here on Earth, the literal vocation of the former is to dominate the latter at all costs. The rest, as the saying goes, is commentary.

This existentially debased construct is the sole reflection of the mythology of "evil" that it promotes to menace and enslave the mind. Judeo-Christian culture is the mirror image of its own Devil.

The remedy is still stretched prone where the two worlds cross. Playacting that this existential disorder was cured by sacrifice two thousand years ago has been a profitable distraction.

Inadvertently, humankind was gathered to its existential benefactor for emancipation.

Wednesday, April 3, 2019

Feast or Famine

When he was alive, he was able to nourish and liberate the famished spirits of his contemporaries. As a scapegoat, his caricature is served as a penurious substitute for the conceptual feast he actually served.

For what it's worth, it appears that I know the recipes. As intellectual integrity would have it, I'm not on the menu, and neither are you.

Sunday, March 31, 2019

Unnatural Selection

Within this totalitarian substitutionary construct, the only reasonable thing that one can believe in is that there is nothing reasonable here for one to believe in. Nothing here is what it purports to be. We are tricked into believing that humankind is developing freely in a natural stream, when in fact, for several thousands of years, we have existed here as livestock in the proverbial barrel. If not for the concessions that our natural qualities have demanded, we would also still be naked and nameless.

For humankind's keepers, the only problem that truly matters is our intelligence. Like their infamous amateur acolyte, Jeffrey Dahmer, they are interested in disabling the "inner life" in order to render a permanent, submissive, unresistant state in people. They are committed to keeping humankind in its place, in their psychopathic construct, as an irredeemably toxic and cosmically insignificant species in need of perpetual existential discipline. That is the pretext for their exploitative relationship with humankind.

It is unacceptable to be forced to live this way, under the clandestine control of agents who consider people to be theirs to dominate. Because of what, I believe, my spirit is, my experiential box seems to be reinforced to a degree that has caused me to question all of my relationships. I am not certain anymore that my life is the result of random circumstances. I have lived alone for the past 6 years, only going out to get necessities and occasionally to visit my family. I am not depressed anymore, but I do feel trapped here.

It has not escaped my notice that I could be diagnosed with various psychological dysfunctions, but, in good faith, after what I have experienced, I am not willing to concede that the dysfunction is mine. Gaslight works precisely to contain or sacrifice the individual. There is no functional support beyond the lies. Fortunately, at least for me, it appears that my spirit can fly. If this world were not built on fraud and deception, psychological dysfunction, as endemic "collateral damage," would not exist.

Recently, I learned to appreciate the humor of how they try to use my "shadow banned" observations to their advantage from the miserable context of their exhausted construct. It has become a guilty pleasure to watch them try to influence people to protest as characters from their Hollywood franchises, join their "woke" movements, and follow their manufactured "resistance" icons. If not for the fact that it is a vignette of an ongoing existential crime, I could grow fond of this impotent clown show.

Sunday, March 24, 2019

The Paschal Fraud

To believe that one's bad behavior can be atoned for by another agent is to be misled spiritually in the most fundamental of ways. The substitutionary construct expects people to support themselves materially but surrender on faith the responsibility for supporting themselves spiritually. In regard to the needs of their own spirits, people are instructed to believe that someone else has paid for them. To believe that one's spiritual enlightenment can be achieved by the death, no less, of someone else, is as preposterous as believing that one can become an expert in math by killing a mathematician. That is why, after nearly two thousand years of practically uncontested ideological reinforcement, despite the alleged divine transaction, we still have a primitive civilization that is materially intoxicated and spiritually impoverished.

The goal of the sapient spirit is to understand itself as well as its context, not to rescue itself by faith from the shortcomings of a condemned meat puppet. The spirit is naturally capable of transcending causality; the enlightenment to make that possible is what every spirit hungers for. One can be granted a truthful ideological foundation, teachers, and even an honest environment to practice in, but one can not achieve enlightenment vicariously. Like every actual skill, it requires practical experience. When a person's spirit is starving, they can be counted on to do anything to alleviate the pain for which the source has been rendered culturally to be essentially unrecognizable.

Christianity truly is a cynically malicious mindfuck, designed, like its parent company, to rob humankind of its agency. Monotheism Inc. is foundationally opposed to human agency, as recorded clearly in the first chapter of its corporate mythology. Despite its numerous defamatory claims of divine responsibility and its hollow displays of faith, now it is equally clear that Monotheism Inc. is also foundationally opposed to divine agency. Its idea of a covenant is a permanent prison. The god company believes, as recorded clearly in its counterfeit doctrine, that this planet is its hereditary private property. Now it is apparent that God and humankind are welcome only to fulfill the needs and desires of the so-called elect and their human pets.

Historically, the oppressors of humankind have demonstrated that they will cause anything in order to maintain their primacy, including famine, plague, war, and the effortless annihilation of entire populations. For now, due to widespread skepticism, they are reduced to broadcasting an increasingly implausible false reality in order to obscure their increasingly fruitless maneuvers, and of course to continue to recruit for their chief executive shedim. They are playing existential keep away with the pillars of human civilization. From left to right, humankind does not have a friend among them. Everything they offer, on principle, is manipulation. Knowing that makes it necessary to choose instead to explore the dimensions of one's personal time.

Saturday, March 16, 2019

The Immortal Cult of the Scapegoat

All of the sensational bloodletting is choreographed by people who are clandestinely organized to intimidate and discourage God as well as punish and eliminate resistance to their dominance. The most recent mass sacrifice, in Christchurch, of all places, was dripping with malicious symbolism, even more than their usual intellectually and spiritually stunted machinations.

Human history is a record of this ongoing hostage situation. Humankind's oppressors have gotten away with it for so long because they do precisely the things that are inconceivable to most people, not because people are stupid but because we are fundamentally benevolent. We do not instinctively set out to dominate each other, even in competition. We are lied to profusely in order to persuade us to dominate each other for otherwise honorable reasons.

The sources of information we rely on to help us guide our civilized lives are as corrupt as the institutions and organizations that administer our civilization. The entity that continually feeds scapegoats to an audience "eager to learn every detail" is the same entity that sacrifices them on the altar of assured privilege. Although it seems like a contemporary perversion, the only thing that is new about our situation, in combination with the new worldwide electronic medium, is the generous existential perspective that is available again to earnestly help to enlighten humankind. This is our history's pivotal naked empire moment, and the end of the brutal road we have been following blindly for millennia.

Christianity is the cult of the immortal scapegoat--a wholly-owned subsidiary of the immortal cult of the scapegoat. Christians are waiting to feast on the scapegoat of scapegoats, once again, because in a death cult, a live scapegoat is a meaningless scapegoat. Through the death of the paschal scapegoat, they are promised the same reward as their spiritually corrupt ideological forefathers: forgiveness of their sins, and eternal life at the expense of their enemies. To die for the sins of others is precisely the job description of a scapegoat. Something truly righteous and marvelous happened two thousand years ago, but the immortal cult of the scapegoat eventually obscured and repurposed it, birthing a substitutionary perversion epitomized by the obscene concept of a divine baby scapegoat born in a feeding trough.

Providentially, something truly righteous and marvelous is happening again. For the scapegoat cults, the return of humankind's generous existential perspective is the literal and unacknowledgable apocalypse. That is why their fear mongering and scapegoating has reached a fever pitch. Reportedly, they give themselves twelve years to re-ligate and corral humankind again. Don't be afraid; let them enjoy the privilege of their rightful existential anxiety by themselves, the way they like it. They are the ones who hate the world and wish for people to eat porridge and dress in sackcloth. Isn't that obvious enough by now? They preserve the utile, reward the feal, and degrade everything else. Be mindful of that when you consider the inescapably profuse products of their existentially corrupt perspective.

The interface between humankind and its traditional abusers is formalized duplicity. On this end, this substitutionary "civilization" is a human-sacrifice-powered theatrical production. The ministers of burnt offerings have always known exactly what humankind needs; when we refuse to allow them to continue to flatter and deceive us, they will finally fail. When that happens, they will acknowledge us sincerely without equivocation.

Sunday, March 3, 2019

The Biblical Construct

Where Israel and its alleged dominion overlap is the variable structure of control that includes religion, government, finance, industry, education, punition, and entertainment. It bills itself as civilization, although in practice it is barely a semblance of what it means to be civil. While the relationship between Israel and the rest of humankind is certainly profitable for the privileged, it is hideously costly for everyone else.

In a primitive world, it is probable that the relationship between knowledge and ignorance leads inevitably to exclusivity and privilege. From the temporally limited perspective of existential competition, exclusionary segregation appears to be unquestionably advantageous. But we are sapient beings with unlimited existential potential, not animals limited to instinctual behavior. To regard humankind otherwise is to deny our miraculous and conspicuous cosmic gift. Is it the intent of God to ensure that most of us fail to rise above our animal instincts?

The only way for this disgraceful construct to be redeemable requires for it to be voluntarily superseded as a temporary structure. There does appear to be an "arc of the moral universe," but it is frail and long because every step has cost a prolonged and bloody battle. And now that Israel has been established as a citadel state, it is clear that its supremacism is not intended as a temporary structure. It is a searchlight unto the captive nations.

The actual power of the Biblical construct is not in the quality of its story nor in the craftiness of its machinations. Its actual power comes from the fastidiously obscured ability to reincarnate human beings. That is why the Bible is impenetrable to conventional logic. I have mentioned before that each one of us contains a seed that can be replanted; the Bible incorrectly understands it as the soul. To have one's seed preserved and replanted is what it means to be "saved" and "born again." Jacob's Ladder is the procedural framework between death and rebirth. Calvin was correct that it's for only the "elect."

Imagine the level of dominance achievable by frequent flyers with long memories. Then consider the seemingly invincible disparities of this world. The claim of godhood is not always the preposterous lie it appears to be; sometimes it is a common existential  misunderstanding. It is necessary to note that the "people of the book" do not yet have a monopoly on reincarnation. The threat of nuclear weapons is particularly frightening for the world's existentially privileged people.

How immortal can one be if one's continued existence relies on the patronage of mortal beings, and if one can be erased by an atom bomb? The Biblical construct understandably misconceives the nature of existence as a phenomenon limited to space and time. The immortal soul manifests temporospatially as an electromagnetic singularity; it survives the universe as well as the body. That, I believe, is being demonstrated through me, especially for the select few who appear to know me better than I know myself.

Reincarnation and the soul are not mutually exclusive. There is nothing intrinsically wrong with reincarnation; but the clandestine manner in which it is practiced here is not only unjust, it ruins human existence by robbing it of its natural agency. The obsession to make humankind permanently subservient degrades and retards its development, and promises to ultimately expend it. To understand how humankind is actually regarded by the Biblical construct, consider how impoverished people are treated in countries ruled by capos, where anything can be done with impunity.

To understand how the Biblical construct actually regards God, consider the story and history of Israel, the "contender," that keeps God subdued like a private genie in order to power its own existential privilege. Regardless of this disgraceful state of affairs, God remains faithful to humankind. God does not hate the world, nor does he wish for people to eat porridge and dress in sackcloth. Although it may appear to be sophisticated from the perspective of existential ignorance, the Biblical construct is a work of spiritual adolescence. If not for how punitively destructive it actually is, humankind would have already outgrown it.

Sunday, February 24, 2019


God believes in humankind.

Developmental providence, as differentiated from foundational providence, is an active helping hand offering the means to a meaningful and effective coordinated effort. The significant factors specific to our existence can be improved upon only from where humankind is positioned. From our perspective, belief in God is not necessary, but belief in humankind's existential potential is. Contrary to the assumptions of possessive religions, existence actually is all about us.

The mindset that hijacks providence uses it as a manual for how to act and what to say to deceive and exploit humankind. Anything short of the voluntary end of that disgrace is merely more of the biblical theater that captivates and degrades human existence.

The Bible is proprietary tribal hokum containing the requisite trace of truth. It could have been written in good faith, in a manner appropriate for accurately documenting the history of the tribe and its relationship with God. But it is not a good faith relationship. So instead, we have a grotesque, ungodly as well as inhuman fairy tale with its intent deliberately obscured. Almost all of the existential weight it has is from time and repetition. Christianity was a significant improvement, but it was thoroughly Judaized, beginning with Saul the Pharisee. It took a savant of religion with hereditary tribal privilege to rein in Christianity and put it under the clandestine control of the Sanhedrin.

The systemic violation of good faith is the fatal flaw of so-called Judeo-Christian civilization, and precisely what is wrong with this world. As clever as it may seem to its beneficiaries, an aggregate of betrayals that enshrines privilege and oppression is not a civilization.

Cheating in the "great game," as the world is deceptively portrayed, is only a symptom of the disease, though. The pathogen is the inherently hateful and malicious mindset that regards itself as being superior to humankind, as well as to God. In addition to the customary cheating, it is responsible for all of the heinous acts it causes and commemorates to vex humanity and protect its own imagined existential status. The evidence it uses to prove its superiority is only the meager and incalculably costly profit of stolen providence.

It is crucial to understand that the mindset in question would have corrupted one host or another. Historically, it has never encountered a shortage of willing accomplices. The temptations that accompany knowledge can be overwhelming. Nevertheless, the provenance and promise of sapient existence are beyond selfish temptations. By all indications, now is the time to rise to the challenge of our difficult nature.

Friday, February 22, 2019

Civilization in Numbers

From precedence, the individual is enabled by knowledge to practice wisdom, which requires benevolence and builds strength of character, in order to create beauty that attracts success and abundance toward the foundation of civilization.

Two-digit combinations are primarily additive. For example, 10 is individual of precedence, the building block of civilization. Repeated numbers, like 33, wisdom!, reinforce the significance like an exclamation point. The combination 69, the beauty of foundation, is also a symbol of romantic love; its reverse, 96, the foundation of beauty, is also a symbol of platonic love.

Three-digit combinations with repeated numbers are illustrations of basic principles. For example, the combination 747 is read as the epitome of the success of benevolence; its reverse, 474, is the epitome of the benevolence of success. The combination 444, my house number, is read as the epitome of benevolence. Combinations with repeated pairs, like 885, are read as epitomes of one thing favored over another. The combination 885 is the epitome of abundance favored over strength; 588 is read the same way. The combination 558 is the epitome of strength favored over abundance. The combination 666 is read as the epitome of beauty. Unlike ideas, there are no inherently bad numbers.

There are several ways to read combinations which are more complex. For example, 1212 can be read as two twelves, or as twelve twelves, or as 21 inside 12. Sequential combinations, like 2345, can be read as the logical progression between specific numbers. Of course, combinations can also have meanings unrelated to this number system. A combination may signify practically anything, such as an important date, a person, or a place. If you have special numbers, you already understand how this works.

The purpose of numerology is to add a simple, reliable and uplifting dynamic element to the internal conversation, not to decipher the world, guide one's life, or tell fortunes. Anything more elaborate than what I have briefly outlined is unnecessary. It can be used deliberately in a symbolic manner, as I do sometimes, but it can't be forced in the internal conversation. Number combinations appear spontaneously through a practically unlimited variety of sources, including clocks, license plates, phone numbers, receipts, and addresses. The significance is in the context. A number can be an acknowledgement or a recommendation. Most of the random number combinations one encounters are contextually meaningless. The most meaningful coincidences are surprises.

The language of random numbers is the only thing of value that I found in the spiritually misleading writing of Aleister Crowley. The words that he used to define the digits were derived from the original medieval Jewish source, and some of them needed to be updated for clarity and relevance. Numerology has been an actively evolving element in my internal conversation since I was 17 years old. My special numbers are the numbers of my birthdate: 9, 19, and 64.

Thursday, February 7, 2019

Between Noumenon and Phenomenon

In addition to recording our corporeal experiences, the human memory also records incorporeal experiences from imagination and dreams which are not dependent on chronology. Interestingly, for corporeal experiences to become memories is to convert them into incorporeal experiences, sortable from imagination and dreams only by their origin. As memories, our corporeal experiences become potential sources for new experiences through imagination and dreams.

When I remember the apartment complex in New Jersey where I lived for five years as a child, I remember it through the prism of the many dreams I have had of the place since then. I can remember the mundane details in the original context, but now those memories are set in a symbolic context packed with meaning. When I visited twenty years ago, the profusion of memories--corporeal and incorporeal--made it feel like I was visiting one of my life's primary metaphysical sets.

I value my dreams because they are the authentic, often memorable expressions of the broadest perspective available to my being. I take the mind seriously and it seems to reciprocate.

Years ago, I can't tell you when but the memory is at least twenty years old, I saw in a dream that the being who is me travels through space and time with a group of planets in a cosmic caravan. Another time, more than thirty years ago, I met a female spirit who spent an entire night in my dream, telling me the story of the being who is me and answering my questions. I don't remember many details, but the story moves with Gypsies and Jews mostly northward and westward through the world over thousands of years with the seat of power.

From a shockingly one-sided battle in Canaan between refined and archaic, to being imprisoned by thieves for a lifetime in a cave in Jerusalem, to living among the precipices of Petra, to being chased by Mongol horsemen in an Austrian forest, to decorating a small Christian chapel on a mountainside in Portugal, to a massacre in France and a river choked with corpses, to life in a comfortingly familiar London before sewage, to Colonial America where I was told specifically that it was not time yet, the many period dreams I have had color the way I experience history. For me, it feels personal and sometimes oppressively Sisyphean.

It appears that I am, metaphorically speaking, the severed hand of a being who is too big for this world, in the same way that Loki is the severed hand of Týr. This hand demonstrates that the distance over which the boulder can be pushed is proportional to the quality of available information. The insufficiency of quality information is what encumbered and destroyed Marvel Whiteside Parsons. I learned about him through a dream that included L. Ron Hubbard, who was sent by the Office of Naval Intelligence to infiltrate the Thelema lodge he administered for Aleister Crowley.

Jack Parsons was an extraordinary person, but he ended up being the victim of organized fraud. He was the founder of the Jet Propulsion Laboratory and his ideas were the inspiration for Scientology. He supported the aristocratic Crowley for years, and he put up the money for the three yachts that ended up forming the basis of the Scientology Navy. I don't know the precise nature of my connection with Jack, but it is close.

Funny enough, President Trump is probably the severed hand of Hermes/Mercury. If he were more than a hand, he wouldn't be a corrupt jerk. He does seem to be aware of his provenance, though. His father surely gave him his inheritance. He combs his hair to resemble a brimmed hat with wings. He is the quick one with the hat and a tan, and nearly impervious to heat. I dislike having him pitted against me. Apparently, my alter ego is quite fond of his.

Some of my dreams are set in the future. Many times I don't remember them until the moment they represent, like déjà vu with an actual memory. The ones with catastrophes are instantly memorable. It is the details of these dreams that compel me to question the finality of time. "Time travel" is most likely impossible from our scale and configuration, but from a scale and configuration which includes space-time manifolds in their entirety, it would be theoretically possible to enter them at any locus. For a sculptor with such a perspective and a motivation to revise, time would be no object. I have seen the end of this world several times.

Tuesday, January 15, 2019

Prometheus Unbound

From the point of view of humankind's oppressors, I may appear to be a dysfunctional collection of failures, but I am actually perfectly suited to this world. I am broken in all the right ways, it seems, to apprehend this pathological reality.

From the point of view of actual civilization, deception is the cardinal unsustainable violation. It is neither intelligent nor heroic to keep humankind bewildered in existential ignorance.

President Mercury and the disinformation Furies are engaged in an ongoing preemptive assault against humankind to neutralize the Promethean threat to their privilege's traditional advantage. Although the professional prevaricators may eventually decide to earnestly turn against their savior in order to save themselves, their "resistance" is an opportunistic distraction for now. From one side of their fabricated political spectrum to the other, they continue to offer deception tailored for each "identity."

Institutionalized captive spectatorship is the inevitable result when all of a civilization's structural components are privately owned or controlled. We, the people, get to vote for the "stars" and plot twists in this intrinsically humiliating production they call reality. Politics by Colosseum is not a recent invention, although now it is digitally corruptible and worldwide. More than two thousand years after the demise of the Roman Republic, we continue to be ruled by polarizing spectacle--this versus that, one after another.

If not for the fact that humankind has been clandestinely trained throughout its history to act against its sapient nature, it would indeed be the failing species condemned by its rapacious overlords. For the first time in our history, the available information verifies our sapient nature and exposes the systematic corruption of it. This is the moment we have been waiting for, when it becomes possible to liberate ourselves from the machinations of the shepherds of strife, and build an actual civilization.

The sapient way forward is necessarily nonviolent and existentially aware. Naturally, beware of people and organizations that promote enmity, exclusivity, controversy, crisis, and conflict. We are not helpless, even against the continual full-spectrum disinformation assault, because in addition to our attention, they need our consent. Although our attention has been monopolized, our consent has not. The abusers of humankind will fail when they lose the ability to fool the people into wasting their time, resources, and faith.

Prometheus represents the fulfillment of humankind's fabled principles--our promise. He demonstrates the integral strength of the individual who is dedicated to what Percy Shelley called "beautiful idealisms of moral excellence." And he reveals how the cosmic construct conspires with our unique nature to enhance existence. The profusion of light in the universe is an indication of the project's success. Ultimately, only our relationships with each other matter; nothing else is worth the trouble of being.