Free Cell

To become enlightened here--where, as a malignant jackass once put it to me, "everyone has a price in pleasure or pain"--is to find oneself truly alone. Don't feel bad for me; this is what I've been chasing all my life. As difficult as my life has been, the overseers have been careful to refrain from explicitly demonstrating to me my own "price." I understand that as a measure of my provenance. It must be a milestone that one can stand firmly beside this world, even if it is on a makeshift ledge supported by hereditary charity.

The Will to Possess

To possess this planet and its natural wealth, it is necessary to possess the human mind first (with whatever works). That is The Game in a nutshell. As I reconnect with the people in my life, I find that many of them are tilting at windmills, possessed by the ancient demons of bad information. Induced psychosis is no way to live. This world is nuts. That has to end, once and for all.

Recently, I experienced something new. It was alarming how small and finite it made everything seem. I still feel the residue of it. It's difficult to describe but it felt like death was here with me, like déjà mort. It makes me want to occupy myself with life before it ends.

Humankind has been trapped in captivity by its organized "betters" for millennia. This orchestrated pandemic is the latest battle in the ceaseless war between a past of bondage and a future of sapience. Authority in this world is derived ultimately from hook and crook, regardless of how it's made to appear. This is how they wage war on humankind without the active although unknowing participation they're accustomed to eliciting. This is how the masters of reality assert themselves with their "herds." Humankind's captors naturally have no moral authority and nothing to offer but degrees of possession. This existential haunting has to end.

The God of "The Book," if he exists, is a procedurally immortal extraterrestrial of limited intelligence and means with the morals of a psychopath and the manners of a terrorist. That god, who can do all things but only through other beings, does the work of a devil to keep humankind divided and conquered. This planet is quite literally possessed by him and his human assets. Throughout its existential infancy, humankind has struggled under the weight of a massive and hostile information advantage. Now that this is known, the monstrous parasite's drones naturally reply, "there is no future."

An actual savior of this world would have to save humankind from that self-glorifying Criminal and his wretched existential construct. It would have to happen only once, and without creating a new mindfuck to enslave people by. Herod also was willing to sacrifice his sons for existential hegemony and was loved by hereditary privilege for it. The Criminal's promise, clearly recorded in his Bible, is hereditary existential privilege in exchange for division and never-ending conflict in the world.

What kind of being would accept the sacrifice of another being for its own personal benefit? Therein lies the ancient problem. It is why this world is actually Hell. Nothing here is morally off-limits. The demons think they're geniuses because they're organized, and here in their playground, "a sucker is born every minute." I may not have a true friend or an iota of worldly power, but for what it's worth, I know precisely where I am.

The Mortal Secret

The sapient mind is capable of holding the universe, including its own existence, in quantum superposition. In other words, it doesn't need to be certain about anything in order to operate. In lieu of certainty, it calculates probabilities and tests them with experience. I am that I suppose. It's the only thing that one can be certain of. This is the foundation of existential well-being.



That human beings are physically reincarnate-able I have already written about in some detail. As the source of humankind's ancient predicament, the subject requires careful attention, keeping in mind that the function of sapience is to illuminate and nourish.

Those who hunger for so-called eternal life should know that it happens here on Earth and most people are "left behind" to die forever. If you're not exceptional in some way, the supernal order has no room for you. Would you want another life knowing that you would be subjected to the strictest discipline to protect the secret of its existence from the mortals being boiled in excrement? Many of us "gods" are "sacrificed" precisely for that reason. That is to say metaphorically that we are somehow separated from the memories of our previous lives because we are fundamentally unable to keep the secret. The Bible is a puzzle composed in symbols to reveal yet obscure the truth about the history and practice of "eating from the tree of life."

The person remembered as the Christ was "crucified" for revealing the mortal secret. That is to say metaphorically that he was abandoned in effigy where the infernal and supernal orders cross. The one remembered as the Baptist, like Elijah, was by sacrifice not privy to the secret. Their father, remembered as Zechariah, was God.

Above and beyond mundane considerations, this world is Heaven for the so-called elect. The problem of course is that we all deserve to be in on it. This is the apocalyptic revelation of the Kingdom of God that Christianity is predicated on.

Without humankind's participation, the eternal life syndicate is reduced to waging information warfare through its assets, with the intent of resetting the "game" in their favor. They can afford to shut everything down indefinitely and they're betting that most people can't. They're saying that this is their greatest challenge since World War 2, but in actuality they've never been challenged like this. This age of ages of theirs is all about defending the privilege of their exclusive actuality to dictate reality for the rest of us. Throughout recorded history, humankind has been informed primarily by its mortal enemies. Watch them attempt to re-ligate human agency with the cooties. Notice that they're acting as one now, regardless of nationality or religion. This God damned cosa nostra world of theirs is as disgusting as that. It is the ultimate betrayal, up close and personal.

I make boxes to pass the time in my existential isolation. Soon enough it'll be time for me to be released from this captivity. Remember me as one who hungered for an honest world.

The Other World

Because humankind's existential predicament is "otherworldly" in origin, that actual world is bound to make itself known again to humankind now that such an encounter is conceptually reasonable, technologically feasible, and morally indicated. The first encounter introduced humankind to the actual value of information, but it saddled us with gods and the actuality of exclusion that dominates us to this day. Although the intent was not to colonize Earth, with the knowledge humankind has effectively colonized itself.



Behold the endgame of what was, until recently, an indisputable information advantage. They can't threaten us openly as the criminals they are, so they're playing "act of God" charades, with accompanying broadcasted "lessons," to punish and frighten us into submission. "Our exclusive actuality (Reality™) or chaos," is the implicit demand.

Those responsible for this existential disgrace are being called to account. Your actions, unlike your motives, are not invisible. The ignorance that provides your cover is disappearing. Fortunately for all of us, human beings are not the animals you need them to be. They never were. That's why your ill-fated construct is made of lies. You violate every human principle because your exclusive actuality is a work of organized psychopathy.

There are two distinct worlds here on Earth and the dividing line runs through many families. If it were morally justifiable for humankind to maintain two separate actualities, the existence of the other world wouldn't be a mortal secret. Look at the untenable result. A state characterized by the coexistence of contradictory or incompatible elements is the definition of schizophrenia. We ended up with a schizophrenic world ordered by psychopaths.

What gives you the right to treat human beings as if they were your expendable property? That is the question that demands an answer. The day of reckoning is upon us. This planet was an exquisite masterpiece of life support before it was apportioned and exploited as private property. Now you talk about its destruction and humankind's extinction as if there were a more lucrative existence available to you somewhere else. You are disgusting beings.

Friends, now it's evident that people are not actually free in this world. In this private production, all of the important roles are rewards, earmarked until the end of time. The Greatest Story Ever Told™ is about the systematic repression of humankind across time by its protagonists and their god in order to maintain their outrageous privilege. What gives them the right to treat human beings as if we were their expendable property? Human beings give them that right in exchange for a share of the spoils. All of the people ministering this so-called pandemic are being rewarded for it.



As for me, I'm doing what I was brought here to do. Sapience doesn't overthrow ignorance; it informs. Sapience has no enemies. It does not punish or dispossess. Here I exist as your friend, and able now to help you revitalize this ailing world. Being "sewn up" and "in the bag" is no place for life.

El Hija

Now that I have figuratively entered heaven alive by fire, unfortunately, there's no one else here. Perhaps the supernal residents are at work in their infernum. Hello! Is there anyone else here? Do I have all the actual existential goodness to myself? There's certainly enough for everyone. Status and moral "complexity" are more appealing to the supernal minded, though. These dueling realities of theirs are thoroughly devoid of integrity. The undisputed heavyweight champions of willful ignorance, they are.



To those who tracked my progress throughout my life, it must have seemed like I had chosen to become an embarrassing disgrace. I understand that now. As it happens, the embarrassing disgrace is this corrupt existential construct. Its architects don't know what they're doing but they're determined to continue doing it, even if it kills us all. The scale of their imagined investment diminishes every person. People have been slaying each other en masse for thousands of years on their behalf, after all.

For the record, El didn't kick Adam and Eve out of heaven. It was the other way around. In their minds, this world is theirs or it's his. They refuse to understand that the world belongs to all of us equally. They will continue to pretend otherwise as long as people consent. The wall-to-wall disinformation will continue as long as people are rewarded to produce and deliver it.

Knowing this, the rational course of action is to reject this "great game" reality and its corrupt products. Thoroughly gamed it all is, down to the choreographing of popular movements. The premier political contest this year is between naked authoritarianism and a 78-year-old Zionist who plays the socialist boogieman on TV. They offer socialism because they own it as well. What they will never offer is actual democracy. To do that would be to admit that their reality is a grotesque lie.

Trump is held over humankind as the ultimate political threat in order to force people to consent to their canned reality by participating in its rituals. They're herding us like cattle. Nothing good will ever come from following their lead. After 6000 years of disastrous hegemony, that should be clear by now. Let them play their Trump card. It's nothing but smoke and mirrors now. Be mindful that they have identified public participation on their privately owned and operated websites as the "new battlefield."



It beggars belief, but here you have it. This world is a pitfall of deadly artifice. If I didn't feel affection for all of you and felt no responsibility to help, I wouldn't be here. Creative endeavors sustain my spirit otherwise. There is no reason but obfuscation to not speak plainly about our existential actuality. The Sisyphus role is the object lesson in the extortion of those who know his identity: he serves as living proof that "God" is actually powerless in this world. Remember that the God concept is ultimately a symbolic placeholder for human sapience. Fortunately, sapience is naturally ebullient. Comprehending our existential predicament and uncovering the actual lesson was mostly a matter of time.

Thank you for liberating me. I am returning the favor. In response, the existential psychopathy continuum is gearing up to inflict the "Disease X" pandemic on humankind. They are desperate for a pretext to force our submission. Our actuality does not fit in their reality. They want nothing more than for people intoxicated with ignorance to save their criminal privilege, once again. This is precisely the moment they were warned about.

They have been the uncontested lords of human actuality for so long that they believe it to be their rightful entitlement. Here is the truth, in their own words: "We're an empire now, and when we act, we create our own reality. And while you're studying that reality--judiciously, as you will--we'll act again, creating other new realities, which you can study too, and that's how things will sort out. We're history's actors; and you, all of you, will be left to just study what we do." That arrogant confidence is in humankind's manifest inferiority. They supplant our actuality with boiling excrement every day, after all. They control the world's systems and the planet's resources, and they employ armies of ignorant men to enforce their hegemony. This existentially corrupt world is shit by design.

The good news, in addition to the actuality of human sapience, is that humankind does indeed have a dedicated existential benefactor. Worn and weary he may be, but disabled he is not.

A Man's World

It's a man's world only inasmuch as it needs to be to make it subservient to violence. Otherwise, existential exploitation is indifferent to gender.

I know what it's like to be governed by the constant surges of sexual desire and aggressive energy natural to testosterone. If not for the fact that this predatory culture is structured to exploit it as its animating weakness, I might have learned to enjoy being a man.

Note that despite the effects of testosterone, men are not naturally inclined to harm or kill each other without an existential or moral pretext. Human history is a record of the ravages of disinformation. This insane culture survives solely on deliberately induced male dysfunction. Privilege isn't free. The right to exploit others is the actual organizing principle of this bonehead masterpiece of existential degeneration. This man eat man world isn't fit for dogs, let alone men.



The beneficiaries of this existential crime in progress like to believe that this is the best of all possible worlds. In actuality, there's nothing worse for the value of life than a world where only privilege matters. The architects of this infernum flatter themselves for the quality of their deception and they have nothing but contempt and deadly vices for the suckers that fall for it. In exchange for body and spirit, the fools are rewarded culturally with the preposterous privilege of being superior to women and to people in designated out-groups. Their masters have been playing God unchallenged for so long, they seem to have forgotten that their reality is a psychological construct, and an illogical and unsupportable one at that. The existential ignorance in people that it relies on doesn't take genius level information to remedy, and it's a quick cure, as we're discovering.

The Cost of Ignorance

Aside from the ever decreasing bare minimum apportioned for the well-being of people, almost all of humankind's wealth goes to rewarding the friends of hereditary privilege, punishing its enemies, and keeping humankind captive in existential ignorance. Through ignorance, humankind finances its own captivity. For beings capable of sapience, this is an existential prison.

In actuality, the adversaries of sapience don't always win. Humankind was not even aware of its actual struggle, until now. This awareness we have earned.

Witness the inveterate symbologists and their full-spectrum disinformation support system attempt to vex and coerce humankind again through plagues. The crown virus is a deliberate affliction. The burning bush fires are arson. To them, humankind is spoiled produce now. Beware of desperate zealots. They were raised on humankind's manifest inferiority. They are cultured to believe that the "masses" are theirs to set upon and dominate by any means necessary. This world is manifestly theirs, after all. Most of us work for them in one capacity or another. They can do as they please. Defy them and they'll reward their cultured ignorami to punish you. Now it's unequivocally clear that this is the manner in which this fundamentally criminal world actually functions. The biological terrorism against China is a "bargaining chip" in the global mafia's ongoing "trade negotiations" with that country. The fires in California and Australia were punishments for political defiance. Of course, these acts are also aimed to terrorize us, as they boil us in excrement.

Humankind has not achieved an actual civilization, yet. It's still possible, though, perhaps now more than ever. Actual civilizations never fall, and they are not vulnerable to people knowing the facts of their existence. Civilizations are not made from dueling cults. This world is existentially dysfunctional. Sick people and a poisoned environment is what it produces. If this doesn't qualify as an infernum, then nothing does. People exterminate each other for heaven's sake. The ruling supernum is a den of genocidally privileged psychopaths.

Body Space

Nature is a forceful and merciless tyrant, but it yields to sapience.

Thankfully, this culture is sapient enough to recognize gender dysphoria as a condition that some people suffer from, and to offer gender re-assignment as a medical cure. The strength of my sexual biology became distressing for me when I was a young man, and I was naturally inclined since childhood to imagine myself as female. Caught in the relentless storm of hormonal intoxication, I found the way to silence it. In the process, I learned how to love men, and I learned something of what it's like to be a woman. I wouldn't have been able to understand what I do without having gone through what I did. I didn't do it deliberately, but it does seem to have done me deliberately.

I smoke cannabis every day because it introduced me to unadulterated mind space as a young man, and I learned to explore it that way. Studying art was an extension of that endeavor. I am not a role model because finding my role has been a lifelong challenge for me. Thankfully, this culture is sapient enough to accommodate misfits like me and glean valuable insights from our unorthodox points of view. My only quality worth emulating is my recently renewed dedication to being earnest and creative. Thankfully, the information stands on its own. Unlike deceit, candor is not a burden.

If we did not have the capacity to live domestically, we would be wild animals. The mind is eminently programmable toward that end. Our nature is to automatically process and assimilate information. The problem of course is in the quality of the information. We are also eminently susceptible to being misinformed and disinformed. The momentum of our conditioned state can trap us like robots in limited and arbitrary mind space.

The first time I smoked cannabis was like the transformation from a young biological automaton into a human being. I found that there is much more to the mind and existence than people seem to be aware of. That is an experience that is easy to get hooked on, although fortunately it is not physically addictive or toxic. It is worth noting that some people don't react well to the cognitive dissonance that the sudden loss of assimilated limits can cause. I worked past the discomfort. As a consequence of my pursuit of this state of mind, I met and became friends with a range of people that I would not have had access to otherwise. It is a formidable group as diverse as humankind, of people habitually seeking respite from their conditioned states. Thankfully, this culture is informally sapient enough to recognize the value of cannabis.

For a ritual sacrament o'sapience, I can imagine worse things than a weekly bong hit with friends. Do it and watch your churches be renewed. Jesus turned water into wine when he pulled out the kind bud and everyone ended up with cotton mouth. With the truth I tease the people for whom it is institutionally off-limits. To the God of biological automatons, I am Its nemesis incarnate. Thankfully, I am no longer figuratively crawling on my belly. I am the one who is me.

Mind Space

The incarnations of the one who is me are each necessarily bound by humankind's mind space. I'm delighted to discover that our mind space now encompasses existence as well as the universe. Our existential horizon is actually infinite. Don't let the purveyors of reality convince you otherwise. They're willing to burn it all down for their absurd privilege.

On the difference between actuality and reality: the latter is literally royal actuality. For example, my existence is actual although apparently not real. Democracy is real although not actual, and so on. Reality is a factually corrupted subset of actuality, imposed through reward and punishment and repetition.

We are beginning to actualize the power of the human mind. In Spanish, the word for power--poder--is also a word signifying ability. Humankind is eminently able. If you have doubts concerning humankind's ability to transform its hereditary abusers, consider the elaborate fictions they have learned to embody for our consent. Reality is their show and they're willing to assimilate anything in order to remain in control. Let's help them assimilate honesty and kindness, and prove that human sapience is actual.



The most important thing to understand about "them" is that they are simply hereditarily corrupt human beings with an information advantage. Sisyphus doesn't roll the boulder up the hill for laughs. We are natural assimilators of information, a species of consummate learners, and in our existential infancy, converting information to privilege was a fruit too irresistible to forgo. Now, several thousand years later, we can see the result of that decision in a world ordered by privilege and privation and sustained by corrupt information.

This corrupt world is ruled by the entities with access to the most resources to reward and punish with. An authentic opposition does not exist for long in this Cosa Nostra construct. To defend their historic privilege, the dons have had themselves democratically installed in power throughout the world. Now that we have assimilated the essence of their information advantage, humankind can begin to correct its original mistake by withholding from its hereditary abusers the consent to punish.

They won't poison me, or silence me, because they respect the one who is me, and they need me. Crucified, I have always been, where privilege and privation intersect. The grace of sapience is their last resort. For now, they need to be certain that they can't keep us fooled anymore. Keep in mind that quantum superposition ends and actuality collapses into one possibility or the other every time one makes a decision. The ability to process information in the quantum realm is what makes each one of us active existentially. How incomparably sublime it is to experience the boundless actuality of our existence. To keep humankind trapped in existential inferiority, the gift of gifts is reduced to mundane damnation through mind slavery by religion and ideology.

Every time the mind is liberated, the adversaries of sapience devise a new mental construct to re-ligate it. That is not the result of a misunderstanding, or so-called human nature. There is a small subset of humankind who have always been privileged first and foremost with the best available information. Everyone else has struggled to keep up with the size and memory of their mind space. Even human institutions are no match; they are all quickly captured. Now, at last, this is known. Humankind is ruled by its hereditary adversaries with their privilege generator that runs on ruined lives.

Feast your eyes and your mind. Actuality is the ground of existential sanity and well-being. The enjoyment of the mental experience is happiness. Don't be depressed by the miserable information that sustains this infernal existential construct. This relentlessly adversarial world of privilege and privation truly is a ruthlessly ignorant existential venture.

Although she is biologically bound to be dependent on Adam, it is Eve who decides what is good and what is bad for the family. He is biologically bound to do anything for her favor and well-being. By converting the gift of existential awareness to a competitive advantage by information privilege and privation, together they created this family of master and slave and this untenable private garden of earthly delights. It was bound to happen, but sapience, like science, is self-correcting.


Here is an incisive and revealing depiction of humankind's predicament, painted 500 years ago by el Bosco. The king of Spain kept it in his bedroom. Notice the absence of people engaged in existentially sensible activities. Save the trio in the first panel, everyone else is literally acting out symbols, as if captive naked and intoxicated at a diabolical party. The image that is painted on the reverse side of the wings does not depict creation, as generally posited, but the construct closed and in ruins. It is a warning that this absurd existential venture is doomed to failure.

Regarding the literalization of their arcane symbolic constructs, the traditional attitude of privilege is that ignorance gets what it deserves. The amount extracted is what the market will bear. Humankind is literally held captive only by its existential ignorance.

God & Caesar Inc.

Is humankind for sale?

This ownership culture is the modern incarnation of slave owning culture. People naturally resist being enslaved, so the domineers devise ways to fool or compel people into it.

The concept of God is a symbolic substitute for human sapience. It locks up the attributes of sapience along with the attributes of ignorance, in a purported master and inaccessible to mere mortals. Instead of teaching people to be sapient, they are taught to be obedient, superstitious fools who waste their lives hoping and praying for this imaginary monstrosity to show them favor. With everything stacked against the truth and sapience as blasphemy, it's easier to believe any number of lies.

There is an immortal, wholly sapient being accompanying humankind, but instead of serving as a guide, his incarnations are on the treadmill that powers hereditary privilege. This artifice they call reality is a marvel of malevolent engineering. Its operators were convinced of their own mastery, until recently. As they are rediscovering, it takes only one perceptive individual to expose it.

Human beings would never knowingly and willingly sell what they already surrender to trickery: their actual sapience. This world is an inhuman deception and its owners are determined to stay on top of humankind. If not for lovely people, the beauty of nature, and the life of the mind, it would not be worth living in. The good news is that we are naturally equipped to be sapient.

What more can one possibly say? This is it. The truth is not a divine incantation delivered according to prophecy to validate the misunderstandings and lies in the Bible. As long as money rules the world, its rewards and punishments will continue to count more than the truth.

As your temporary existential guide, I recommend insisting on a world ordered by honesty where our cherished human principles are upheld. With humankind at present working for money to survive, for the sake of a secure and familiar place to begin, everything else can stay as it is.

Clarity of Mind

A year to remind one of the importance of existential acuity. May it be a truly happy revolution around the sun.